you did this to me.

she nags. he complains. she knows exactly what to say. to make him not himself. not my dad.

he screams at her, she screams at him. they yell, in unison. he lifts his hand. i close my eyes. i open. she's crying. now i'm crying.

he screams at her, she screams at him. they yell, in unison. he lifts his fist. i close my door. i close my ears. hole in the wall.

he screams at her, she screams at him. they yell, in unison. he lifts his voice. louder. i lock my door. put my headphones in. in the corner.

he screams at her, she screams at him. they yell, in unison. he lifts my love and throws it out. tells her he never loved her. tells her he regrets being with her. i listen. 

i leave.


he screams at her, she screams at him. they yell, in unison. he lifts his hand. i close my eyes. i open. i am in bed. alone. now i'm crying.

1000 miles away.

you still don't see.

what you did to me.