Secrets

You want to say something to someone but if you say it, it means that you want it to be said. But if you don't say it, you don't want it to be said and that makes you a coward and if you do say it, you're a risk taker but also, an attention seeker. But if you try to get it subliminally said, you know the truth and the truth won't lie no matter how much you force it to.

Peace

Love becomes a noise

that fails to satisfy the feeling

felt inside.

When is love real?

Do you always love someone the same

 or does it grow on with time?

And if it does, how could love have the same meaning

 for both times?

You claim to not be able to love someone 

any more than that moment,

but then what if you do? 

How reliable is love.

How could this new, stronger love be equivalent?

The use of the word is unfulfilled.

Love becomes louder when said as if to emphasize

 feeling.

How high can you scream?

Just one word holds the power of your universe. 

Loving someone is not a present to them, 

but a relief to you. 

You spend your life 

trying to express your love in

 some sort of collaboration of 

words and ways.

Yet, it forfeits to satisfy.

Love is inexpressible.

Sadness fills you, knowing the person 

you love, will never be filled with overwhelming sense

of your love. 

You tell yourself it is love, because what else would it be?

So you plan the dream wedding, 

convinced that the finalization 

will make it feel real.

Deny the doubts, everyone feels this way.

No, they don't.

Poor girl, they don't.

You love so hard.
You have passion swimming in your eyes
Honesty screaming through your lungs,
regardless if you speak.
You glow when you tell stories
of how this affection came to be.
After listening to each word
and taking note of every piece of art
you draw with your heart.
I am sorry it took so long
for me to finally see
that of all the passions that make
your heart burn,
your favorite is me.

You gave me wings but
you are still on the ground.
So I cut off a wing
& sew it on to you.
When I fly,
you're coming too.

The Lucky One

When you fall in 

love with a soul,

nothing has ever looked more beautiful.

every inch, every ounce

all a perfect creation mastered 

by God

to be loved & cherished

by you

You have shown me my voice,
the power it beholds.
All those people who have hurt me
with their souls and hearts so cold,
I should want to scream to them
and curse them all away.
But instead I turn to you,
I love you is all I say.

Final

Sometimes, loving someone is enough. 

Most times, just remembering someone loves you, is enough. 

And every time, having someone make you believe you are enough, is more.

Knowing

Just as the moon always shines when the sun is away, my love for you will not fade away.

Sea

I swim the depths of the water,
where critters haunt me in the darkness.
I hold my breathe till the last second life allows me,
searching for the pearl
that I will never find.
So I pick up the loveliest shells I see,
hoping they will satisfy your heart.
You kiss me a thousand times
and thank me for the tokens,
But beg me to end my quest
because I risk losing your pearl every time
I enter the water.

Insomnia

Love is enough for me. It is the worries and doubts and hopes that keep my fingers crossed permanently. It is the daydreams that I lose sleep over replaying in my mind. It is the promises that will be kept in time. It is the feeling in my heart telling me this is right. It is the fight I will always fight. It is more than enough for me, but what can I do, if it's not enough for you.

I love you yesterday, and I love you today.
I love you tomorrow, and tomorrow's tomorrow.
I did not love you last year, but I did not know love then.
I know love now, I will never let it go, I will never not know.

This I Know

I am sure that
despite what I
do in my life,
If I can
have you by my side,
I will be ok.

I wake up in the morning, and the pain isn't gone, just veiled, with sleepless eyes and a cloudy mind. And I can't cry anymore, my body is drained and my heart locks me out from remembering all the plans we made. So I lay, and I lay until I remember to get up and carry on. No matter how heavy the pain is, I carry on to you.

I've heard it all

Everything happens for a reason

When one door closes, another opens

It will all be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not the end

But tell me

Why do people die sad

Healing

He kisses my scars, he doesn't kiss them away

He kisses my scars & promises the pain won't stay

The Light

I promise, dear, it will all be okay.
You are trapped, but one day you will be free.
The wind will carry you far away and the unknown land will protect your rattled heart.
Oh do not give up now dear.
You are so close.
The clouds are only an arm's stretch away.
Put it down, dear, you have such much to do
so many words to say
so many people have not loved you yet.
Didn't anyone tell you it was worth the fight?
Fight my dear, fight and give every ounce of you.
You will not be drained, I vow to that.
Oh my dear, I vow to you, it will all be alright.
You are alone now, but you will see the light.

Her

He sees the sun in her eyes, his heart burns with every glance.
He can look at them for hours, he ignites with every chance
Her body moves like an ocean, crashing with each curve.
A single touch, a graze, is felt throughout each nerve.

Screaming

And they don't always say it out loud, but their face expressions scream it, that you are different. Because you like to sit in darkness, you like to listen to soft, slow music, and because you only speak when spoken to. They hold it against you since they can never stay silent themselves, they can never feel through a conversation and let someone else release their emotions, they might hear but they never feel. But because you don't sit and wait for your turn to talk and go into a detail about a story that everyone else already muted out while trying to gather their own thoughts for their turn, you are weird. But don't listen to them, you are better without their judgements. One day your silence will strike them and they'll begin to wonder and ask about you, and if that day never comes, they don't deserve to know.

The Darkness in the Depth

You never understand why you would need to let someone you love go, until you really have loved someone. You might not ever understand it, but you know you need to regardless. You love them so much that you want them to experience everything the universe has to offer and it keeps you up at night thinking you might be holding them back, so you let them go. You surrender them to be free and to feel and give love in ways that you couldn't show to them. And maybe they will come back, but you live your life with your fingers uncrossed.

No More

And maybe before you would have curled up and held your knees and listened to the stones hit the floor after you first felt them hit you. But that was before. This time, you stand up and you catch a stone in your hand, you hold it tight. You look straight in their eyes, drop it to the ground, and walk away.

Always

No matter how many people I meet, or how many words I share with them, they will never be you. No one will ever be you. I will never feel how I feel with you, with anyone else. Everyone else is fine, nice. But you, you are better. You are better by just being you, and not them. No one comes close to you, and that is terrifying and relieving all at once.

Loaded Gun

Every person fights a war of choosing to be happy or succumbing to the sad truths about life. I know my battle is no different than anyone else's, I just wish I had some recruits on my side.

Please Don't Hurt Me

I wanted to want them,

I do not want to want you,

I wanted to love them,

I do not want to love you.

But in the end, it was always you,

it was never them.